There are a lot of things that come with falling in love. There is falling in love with the way his smile brightens a room. There is falling in love with the way he sounds when he's just woken up and he calls you just to say good morning and make sure you're okay. There is falling in love with that moment you spent with him laying on the floor of the balcony where everything began while listening to your favorite bands together. There is falling in love with the way he looks at you like you're the best person walking on Earth. There is falling in love with the way you can talk about anything. There is falling in love with the way he gets excited when he sees something that he really likes. There is falling in love with his smile and how happy he looks while both of you watch his favorite tv serie (*cof* How I Met Your Mother *cof*) because he wanted you to watch it.
So, if he can make you laugh and forget how awful your day was, don't let him go. If he can make your heart explode just with a smile, don't let him go. If he makes your mind full of happy thoughts and daydreams, don't let him go. If he calms you not only with his words but also with the sound of his voice, don't let him go. This feeling can slip through our fingers so easily and if you let it go there's no guarantee it'll come back.
Long distance relationships aren't always ideal. They are really tough, in fact. You spend countless hours talking through a phone or through a screen. You can't see the person when you want to or when you need them the most. You can't hug or kiss or hold hands, you lose the intimacy in a physical sense. But then, your relationship becomes based on each other and nothing else.
You learn to communicate, because a long distance relationship without communication is nothing. You learn to trust, because you can't always see or know everything the person is doing. You learn to sacrifice because someone is going to lose some hours of sleep (depending on the responsibilities of each other, time difference, etc).
And lastly, you learn to appreciate. When you only have limited amount of time with a person, you learn to appreciate every single moment you have with them. When you finally see that person after weeks or months of seeing them only though a computer screen it is one of the greatest feelings in the world. When you've waited for something so long and you finally have it, you cherish it.
So, I hope that you fall for someone who loves you more than you love yourself. I hope you fall for someone who makes you feel like a little kid again. I hope you fall for someone who accepts your flaws and your faults, and loves you all the same. I hope you fall for someone, and love deeply, truly and fully, even when it hurts so bad you don't want to. I hope you fall and experience everything you never thought you deserved, at least I am.
Love. Love, is a scary word. It's a word that I got use to not mention, forget that it exists. It's a word that I am terrified to use. But, I have been feeling like there are three words that really, really want to say out laud but I can't do it. I can't do it because I'm afraid and because... What if it is too soon? I can't speak confidently about it, so I write. I write because it's easier for me.
